My 2013: What was not seen in Pictures

December 30, 2013

I will start this post with a confession and admit right from the start that this is not an easy post for me to write. We, the photographers, might find it sometimes easy to snap a beautiful picture which captures what we see in front of our eyes, or through the lenses. But the truth is that reality and life are not always like that.

I can write about all the places I have visited and shot on 2013 (Lisbon, Porto, Berlin, Tel Aviv, Flanders, London and Greece) or write about all the great assignments I got and my debut editorials in some of the top International Travel Magazines (Travel+Leisure, Conde Nast, Lonely Planet, Resource Magazine) or even brag about the great exposure my personal ‘Intimacy Under the Wires’ photography project got (The Independent UK, La Repubblica, Huffington Post, PetaPixels). I can also mention the people I got to meet and work with (Karim Rashid).

But what these pictures can’t and couldn’t tell, is how sad and heartbreaking the year of 2013 has been for me.

It was the year when I changed my life almost 360 degrees so I could be next to my dad while he was fighting cancer. The year I ‘danced’ through my photo assignments and deadlines so I would never skip any kind of treatment my dad went through. The year in which I spend some nights in the hospital alongside my dad, just so he would see a familiar face when he woke up. The year in which the sentence ‘Family Comes First’ was not just a sentence, but an act of life.

It was a very tough year. Words can not describe. Not even my pictures!

And throughout this hard time, I got to realize what is the Importance of Life (spend as much time as possible with your loved ones and never hold back)

Who are my REAL friends (those who will always be there for me and will come over when I ask them to, or even without me asking…they will just BE THERE)

and no matter what kind of personality I have or mood-swings I was going through, I had to keep being strong and optimistic.

Till the end.

My dad passed away on November 2013. When someone who is so close to you dies, it is always too soon.

My dad is the one who taught me everything I know about Photography and the one who always encouraged me to take risks and chances and live life with no regrets.

When I look at the images at the top of this post and count the features and assignments I did throughout this year, I know I owe this all to him. To My Dad.

My New Year’s resolutions? Live each day as it was your last and shoot as though tomorrow you will be strictly blind….




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  • Reply Lindsey December 30, 2013 at 4:37 pm

    Oh Sivan, I’m so so so sorry to read that your dad passed in November. Your time with him, particularly during his illness, was undoubtedly invaluable to him. Wishing you strength and far less heartbreak in 2014 (and of course, continued success). Thinking of you!

  • Reply Sivan December 30, 2013 at 5:30 pm

    Thanks Lindsey! Have a Great 2014. I’m sure I get to see you either in Paris or Tel Aviv

  • Reply bea December 31, 2013 at 7:32 am

    Sivan…when i read this post a tear fall on my face…i lost my daddy when i was 15, now i’m 28, and i perfectly know what you’re passing through…i just can say to you that time will help you…and that he will always be by your side.
    I send you a huge hug!

  • Reply Sivan December 31, 2013 at 2:10 pm

    Thank You Bea, Have a great New 2014

  • Reply Judy Sederof January 1, 2014 at 5:51 pm

    Thankyou so much for your blog, I love to read each post. You have done so well to keep working so productively and caring for your father at the same time.
    Its a very sad time when a parent passes but I found a creative leap happened once I started to emerge from the grief, it can be a positive time. Wishing you well.

  • Reply Sivan January 1, 2014 at 7:30 pm

    Thanks Judy! Have a great and creative 2014.

  • Reply Steph January 7, 2014 at 9:24 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. He taught you very well. Your work is wonderful.

    • Reply Sivan January 7, 2014 at 9:39 pm

      Thank You Steph

  • Reply Xam January 11, 2014 at 8:23 am

    I still have both of my parents with me, but I have never been this reminded to always stay by their side.

    I wish you a very fruitful year and continued success. Your Dad is surely proud of you.


  • Reply Susan January 30, 2014 at 12:15 pm

    I am guilty of being a longtime lurker. I have been following your blog and your work for the past 6 months and am blown away by your talent, your work ethic and after reading what you have had to deal with in the past year your unbounded energy. You are absolutely inspiring to me. Unknowingly you’ve encouraged me to take my passion for photography and travel more seriously. If I have a career with a fraction of the success of yours I will be incredibly happy. Thank you so much and please don’t stop!

  • Reply Sivan January 30, 2014 at 9:02 pm

    Thanks Susan for your beautiful comment and for following my blog

  • Reply Anna Long-Stokes February 19, 2014 at 5:46 pm

    Oh my god this post touched me. I’m sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your beauty and bliss in-spite of your 2013 struggles~

    • Reply Sivan February 19, 2014 at 7:15 pm

      Thank You Anna

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